Category Archives: love


This is what my family looks like. Well, I am obviously not that dark but ya know. I found these hilarious little dolls at Ikea the other day and they just cracked me UP!

I am so thankful for this family and for what the Lord is going to do through this little rainbow of people. Have a  great Tuesday! It’s almost CHRISTMAS!!!!!!

From the journal…


Journal entry: March 23rd 2011

“My story is not for me.It is for you and your doubt and your fear and your abandonment. None of thisstuff matters. Jesus is what matters. And not that your hurt or your sorrow isnot important but it is that, despite that. Despite the mess ups and theimperfections and the failure and the rejection-Jesus. Sweet Jesus. Whispers sogently in the ears of our soul- I love you. I have a plan for you and yourlittle mess of a life. Ive got it. I know you don’t know. I know you don’ttrust and you fear, but darling daughter, you are mine. I picked you. I createdyou. I love you darling. And I, your father, your husband, your maker, willNEVER leave or forsake you. Oh sweet darling. My darling daughter. I love youmore than you could ever imagine. I knew this was going to happen. I knew it.This is not a surprise to me. I am allowing something in your soul to happenthat would not otherwise happen. I know. Cry. Feel. Weep daughter. I will showyou step by step my faithfulness. I know you don’t fully trust me. I know itshard. I will prove my faithfulness to you and you wont ever have to doubt. Butyou will. And I will prove to you over and over again. Because I love you. Youare darling to me. You can not imagine what I have for you. I smile when I seeyou trying to picture it. You can’t even fathom it. You can’t make it happen.Only through your obedience and my grace will you get there. It will be harderthan you trying to do life in your own strength because many a days you won’tknow what is next. It won’t make sense to those around you, like Noah, but knowwhat I have spoken to you daughter. Know my voice. You know my voice. You knowthe still sound of my voice. Follow that. Be gracious and follow that. I willnot leave you. I have not brought you this far to leave you. I will not leaveyou. I am not man who will leave you. I am your God. When you feel like you cango no further; keep going. It is through that push. Just like the last pushesof labor, when you feel you can push no more, that you birth the promises Ihave for you.”


I don’t even know where to begin.
First off…!!
For those of you who know how desperately I have wanted an Asian baby-No. I did not adopt him. 
 I cashed in my ‘Buy an Asian baby’ account today. 
The past years of knowing this man and the past few months of dating him have been unbelievable. 
He is the most sacrificial, kind, sincere, considerate, patient, 
gorgeous, gentle, forgiving, loving person don’t be deceived, he could kick some serious ass if need be.
He looks like Jesus minus the little slanty eyes & jet black hair.
His affections are for me.
His heart is pure & his love is a crazy biblical sort of love.
Every time I look at his face, I am reminded of how much the Lord loves me.
I do not deserve this type of love.
 Not at all.
This is not what I signed up for.
This is grace.
This is redemption.
This is my life & this is what the Lord is about. 

To: My brother and new sister

I love you so much. 
You are my first, tallest, smartest, quietest, humblest, gentlest brother. 
I am so stinking glad that you got married yesterday. 
I am sick and tired of you talking about how you want to get married.
I know that you are going to be an amazing husband to Kara. 
I am so honored to call you my brother. 
I love how you take it when Jon and I pick on you. We both know that you are the favorite so we gotta get our jabs in somehow. And remember..being the favorite means that you are going to be the one to wipe mom and dad when they are unable. It is not quite the honor as you may think. will be making more money than Jon and I so you will probably just pay someone to do it.
I am so thankful that you came out to Virginia to live for a bit. I will take full credit for your awesome style and that you are now going to be a chiropractor. Let’s remember the ‘wardrobe’ if you want to call it that, when you came out to VA and how you were gonna move to OK and get a minimum wage job workin at Braum’s or somethin 
My prayer for you as a husband is that you will learn how to love that hot woman of yours as Christ loved the church. That you will serve her and rub her back and let her have the last of the Nutella. That you will become a student of her. 
You are a great man of God and I thank HIM for you.
I am sorry for burning your hand with the lightbulb when we were babies what parents leave an open lightbulb within a 3yr olds reach… but I think your scar is pretty cool so, once again, I will accept your thanks. 
Look. I just met you Friday.
Not quite sure what I fully think about you yet. I mean, you are good looking and your quads are to die for. Your cheek bones are perfect and my brother married you…so..I guess I will learn to love you.
I hope you know that I have not liked ANY of the many girls that my brother hoped to marry. None. But once he told me that you understand his mumbling and you finish his crossword puzzles, I thought, WOW. I really like this chic.
I am so glad to have you as my sister. 
My prayer for you is that you will respect my brother and become a student of him. That you will learn to cook well and you will run a great home. I pray that you will serve him everyday and in every way. Pray for him daily and make sure he doesn’t get fat.
I had a great time with you this weekend and I can’t wait for you and Nate to get back from your honeymoon so I can re-do your wardrobe and teach you how to cook. 
Don’t forget that I am the oldest and wisest of the siblings. 
You got a great man and are one lucky lady.
Welcome to the Thomas family!!
(And don’t ever forget Mrs.Thomas, that I wrestled and I am a Thomas so if you EVER do anything to hurt my brother…
Love you guys!!!!!!!

Bare legs

The story continues…. I look forward to the new year when I will be able to write the chapter of how the Lord came through for my housing situation. I am almost sure of what is going to happen but I will keep as quiet about it as I can until I am actually moved. God is so wonderful in how he operates. I am so thankful to HIM for working all of this out. There is no way I could of thought up this plan. It is BETTER than I could have planned it. I love that the Lord works like that. He is so gracious. Although I am ready for the next chapter to come, I must stay in these pages so that I can get to know my character more. So I can see how she operates at “such a time as this”.