Category Archives: thankful

Rainbow

This is what my family looks like. Well, I am obviously not that dark but ya know. I found these hilarious little dolls at Ikea the other day and they just cracked me UP!

I am so thankful for this family and for what the Lord is going to do through this little rainbow of people. Have a  great Tuesday! It’s almost CHRISTMAS!!!!!!

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NYC

SoHo 
I spent this past weekend in New York City. 
I had an amazing time. My love planned the trip and it was perfect. 
We:
~at ice cream at Momofuku Milk bar
~walked around Chelsea & SoHo
~went to Cirque du Soleil at Radio City  
~spent a good 4 hours in Bergdorf Goodman
~took a stroll through Central Park
~ate gelato at Bryant Park
~spent some lovely time in Brooklyn overlooking the city
The trip was short and sweet. We fell in love a bit more and I can’t wait to see the world with this man.
Next stop:
San Francisco (again:)
I can’t wait!!

Boast

“I will bless the LORD at all times;
his praise shall continually be in my mouth.
My soul makes its boast in the LORD;
let the humble hear and be glad.
O magnify the LORD with me, 
and let us exalt his name together.
I sought the LORD, and he answered me,
and delivered me from all my fears.
Look to him, and be radiant;
so your faces shall never be ashamed.
This poor soul cried, and was heard by the LORD,
and was saved from every trouble.”
~Psalm 34:1-6

A Character Who Wants Something

I am having quite a day. An emotional day. I can feel the panic and fear attempting to make itself known in my soul. I also feel the confidence and trust in my GOD rising up. Each one takes its spot in first place, like two runners nearing the finish line. It is a fight to the end. I am reading my favourite book, “A Million Miles and a Thousand Years”, for the third time. As I enter this last month, more than ever, I need to be reminded of the story. McKee says in Miller’s book, 
“But in that place, I remembered about story, about how every conflict, no matter how hard, comes back to bless the protagonist if he will face his fate with courage…It hurts now, but I’ll love this memory, I thought to myself. And I do.”
I am excited for this to be a memory. To look back on how the LORD came through. I just got out my old journal and read the entry from this time last year. Some of it reads: 
“Oh Lord, have mercy on me. I can’t do this-yes I can- I have been doing this for SO long. Can I do it another year? Can I deal with a shitty marriage for another year?…I really hate school a lot….I just want to cry. How many other women out there are feeling my pain. I bet so many. It is the cry of our hearts to feel loved in our marriage; is that such a hard request? What are they afraid of in loving us? Why don’t they get it? Do we get it? Are we suppose to just put up with the shit and go to God? Is that how HE is sure that we are needy of him? I feel as though I am living with my antagonist. Alright-back to the jungle. Lord, I ask for wisdom”.

I am thankful for this past year. Thankful for what the LORD has allowed to happen in my heart. Thankful for the beautiful mess of a story that is my life. Thankful that this time next year, I will love this memory. 
“..and sharing a story with somebody made the story more meaningful.” pg 154.

Off track

Something in my spirit tells me that I am getting off track. I gotta get back to the story. It is a hard road ahead but I know the destination will be so worth it. I must endure run the final laps strong. I thank you friends for your prayers and support through all of this. What dear friends I have in my life. I am so thankful. I will get to see a lot of you in the next week and I.CAN’T.WAIT!!!!

story

I have written more this week than ever before. It feels good. I feel totally responsible for the survival of the us postal service. I may have to get a second job just for postage.

I have had such a great week so far and I know that more good things are going to come. I had some great conversations this week about life and dreams and our life as a story.

A year or so ago, someone that I know closely told me that I was to keep all of these things to myself. The problems that I was going through, my heart, my story. What a lie. I am thankful that I did not listen to that voice. I am thankful that I started blogging and sharing my story. I am thankful for the things that have come from it. I am thankful that I know you because of it. I am thankful for the doors that sharing my story has opened up. We were not created to live alone. To be alone. God himself is in a Trinity. We were made to share our stories. To let others stories effect ours. To learn and grow and grow up together and in community. Although my current community looks nothing like I had pictured, it is my community.

Grateful

  TO BE GRATEFUL for an unanswered prayer, to give thanks in a state of interior desolation, to trust in the love of God in the face of the marvels, cruel circumstances, obscenities, and commonplaces of life is to whisper a doxology in darkness”
-Brennan Manning as he rocks my face off in ‘Ruthless Trust’