I feel the need to remind you of the bigger story, for we must never forget from where we came. I am absolutely blown away by the Lord. It has been almost 2 years now since HE laid this difficult yet beautiful chapter of scripture on my heart. I have wept and wept over these words wondering why on earth I had to go through the hell that has been my story. I cried out to the Lord desperate to understand these passages. I had no idea what HE meant by this and I still don’t fully know:
“Do not fear, for you will not be ashamed; do not be discouraged, for you will not suffer disgrace; for you will forget the shame of your youth, and the disgrace of your widowhood you will remember no more. For your Maker is your husband, the LORD of hosts is his name; the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer, the God of the whole earth he is called. For the LORD has called you like a wife forsaken and grieved in spirit, like a wife of a man’s youth when she is cast off, says your God. For a brief moment I abandoned you, but with great compassion I will gather you. In overflowing wrath for a moment I hid my face from you, but with everlasting love I will have compassion on you, says the LORD, your Redeemer.” Isaiah 54:4~8
The LORD is a Redeemer. He turns your ashes to beauty and your weeping to JOY. My heart breaks right now as I write this knowing that some of you are going through hell. You want to quit, there seems to be no way out, and you feel like there is nothing good that can come from your messed up story.
That is a lie. Please fight. Please get on your face before the LORD. I beg you. He is an awesome GOD up to good. My prayer is that this will encourage you to fall in love with Jesus, for without HIM, I am just a mess. But with HIM, my story becomes a Beautiful Mess.
Please feel free to contact me if you are going through some shit and need to talk it out. I had 2 wonderful divorced, single moms who walked by my side through the whole process…whom I didn’t know..they were on the other side of the battle and were able to encourage me while I was in the trenches.
Thanks for reading.